A Serious Message
Hello friends, fans and fellow fans in the reviewverse community:
If you’ve seen on Twitter recently, I made the following tweets:
This stems from some news I got recently of a former friend. I won’t name this person because I don’t want to slander them like they did to me. They lied about me, spread rumors, created drama and recently said racial slurs against me.
The cause is their disapproval of my relationship and my role in the fandom.
This person is a bully, a classic manipulator and what is worse is that they are trusted member in our community.
However more than a few people had problems with this person and some are afraid to speak out because of fear of what they might do. Others, like me, were victimized or intimidated or controlled if we seemed to be a threat to their standing.
This has caused me stress for the better part of this year. They have tried to pit people against me, isolate me, and break up my relationship. Others have spoken to me with words of support or with a story of their own of how this person hurt them.
Normally, I would just do what I did for months which was to not talk to them and ignore their attempts, but the comments on my identification as a Black American were the line. There must be consequences.
Last night, I tried to die. I felt alone and cornered. These actions taken against me, to isolate me, just increased the stress this person has given me for the last year. On top of spreading lies, intimidating others, and bullying, all to discredit me and bring stress to my relationships. I was just so tired, emotionally tired of everything. I feel like this person will never get consequences and I will never get justice for their manipulation because of the fear they put in others to not come forward. But I’m tired, and I don’t want to be afraid of them.
I thought I was in this fight alone. But there are others who have been a victim to this person and are scared of their influence, and nobody in this community should feel that way. To the people who are afraid she’ll do something to them: don’t be. If they have intimidated you, they are not really your friend, plain and simple. Friends aren’t tools. Friends aren’t tickets to e-fame. Friendship is based on trust and love.
And to that person, if they read this:
I pity you. And you won’t hurt me anymore. And most of all, I won’t let you use others to hurt me, either. I won’t let you hurt others the way you hurt me. I may not get justice, you may not get the consequences you deserve, but I can at least promise that I won’t let you become this community’s bully.
I’m not going to die. Not today.
*all of the hugs*